I didn’t really drink much until after I had my kids back then it wasn’t really a lot.
That came in my late twenties but only in the evening.
I like the buzz it gave me and I could forget just about everything.
I always seem to take on everybody’s problems and didn’t seem to have time for mine,
so slowly over the years I drank more and more.
Anything it didn’t matter but once I started I wouldn’t stop until I passed out.
When I was in my forty's after passing out sometimes I’d wake up with a black eye or lots of bruising I just didn’t remember how I got it.
In my early fifties my ankle started to swell but I ignored it.
There was always something or someone needed my help so I didn’t get it checked,
Just had another drink to make me feel better.
I didn’t have a doctor so a lovely young lady asked me to go to the local hospital as she needed a doctor herself but it turned out it was a trick.
I was sat in front of the doctor. They took the usual blood test and ask the usual questions like how much did I drink.
I played it down but the family member told the doctor everything.
I was given appointment for 10 days later but 3 days later I was called back to be told I had liver damage.
Any way I’ve got cirrhosis of the liver and the ankles both that is, have nerve damage due to alcohol.
Now I can’t walk far and I’m classed as disabled.
The doctors support was amazing and they let me choose what day I would finally take that step and quite drinking.
3 years ago on the 1st of November I stopped drinking.
And today what keeps me sober is something I was told by the hospital which was that I had 6 weeks to live.
I realise today that I mattered, my life matters and my 2 beautiful grandchildren matter.
It’s not easy it is hard because at times I still want a drink.
But now it’s easier to say no I don’t need you.
**Thank you so much for sharing your story with us Shelley. I am so happy you are still with us and living proof that we can recover**
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